心不老的湯米

So many things have been going on in my mind since I arrived here about two months ago. It seems that more and more are adding and less and less are unloading. It's like a huge dam already full of water but storms and rain still keep coming. There is no sign it will stop and there is no way the dam capable of swallowing that much. So, what's gonna happen next? Everyone knows.....

Fortunately, I have this little blog, my tiny space. It is the only exit inside the dam. That's why I keep writing when I can't stop thinking.

Sometimes my writing is meaningless and not even logical. Sometimes it sounds like I am moaning for nothing. Sometimes it looks like I am dying. Sometimes it feels like nothing has ever happened. Despite that, I still keep writing...I am sorry if all of these hurt your eyes...

Maybe I am just too emotional. Maybe I am should be as mature as people in my age are expected to be. Maybe I just let everything go and move on. Maybe I just need someone to say something to wake me up. Maybe there is no possible maybe here. Maybe I've already lost my mind and don't know what I am saying now.

Back to the dam, it is still so stuffed. Any single drop of water can overflow it.

So, the only way is to keep writing here...hopefully...it will be sunny tomorrow...