心不老的湯米

How can I keep from singing God's song? The voice is from my deep heart...it's impossible to keep it from coming out...

Artist: Chris Tomlin

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

 I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

You'll never know how stronger you can be while having God behind. You'll never understand why you suddenly are able to overcome something you never possibly think you are capable of doing. That's what faith can do. Just believe in God and have faith in yourself...

Artist (Band): Kutless

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think its more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You do have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can!

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

坐在咖啡廳裡看著唸不完的書...耳朵聽著KK BOX裡撥放的歌曲...突然想起那唯一讓我聽了會起雞皮疙瘩的聲音...張雨生的聲音...自從他殞落後...就再也沒有一個聲音可以讓我百聽不厭...可以讓我無論在多起伏的心境中再次感動...跟大家分享這首我期待...我覺得真的除了張雨生沒有人可以真的唱好這首歌...太經典了...

作詞：張雨生　作曲：張雨生　編曲：The Band/張雨生

我期待　有一天我會回來　回到我最初的愛　回到童貞的神采
我期待　有一天我會明白　明白人世的至愛　明白原始的情懷

我情願　分合的無奈　能換來春夜的天籟
我情願　現在與未來　能充滿秋涼的爽快

Say Goodbye Say Goodbye 前前後後　迂迂迴迴地試探
Say Goodbye Say Goodbye 昂首闊步　不留一絲遺憾

我情願　分合的無奈　能換來春夜的天籟
我情願　現在與未來　能充滿秋涼的爽快

Say Goodbye Say Goodbye 前前後後　迂迂迴迴地試探
Say Goodbye Say Goodbye 昂首闊步　不留一絲遺憾

I have not talked about baseball for a long time. Since it is the playoff time now, I am going to talk about it a little bit here…

As most baseball fans may know, the NL favorite team to the World Series was eliminated from the postseason by L.A. Dodgers, the St. Louis Cardinals. Last Saturday evening, I was sitting in front of my TV and staring at the monitor with so much emotion. My love, the Cardinals, had lost two games in NLDS with the best 1-2 punch in the league, Chris Carpenter and Adam Waimwright. This could be the last game in 2009 for the Red Birds. However, despite all of the efforts players and fans had been making, they lost again and literally made Busch Stadium the place to forget.

I saw so many fans tearing, hugging, being disappointed or just paralyzed on their seats and so was I. Even though I should be happy about the Taiwanese boy, Hon-Chi Kuo, playing really well for the Dodgers, I preferred to see him knocked down by my Cards. I had nothing to say and didn’t know why this was happening just in front of me.

On the other hand, in the AL, there is no surprise that the Yanks and Angels advancing into the next round, ALCS. And the damn Dodgers will face the defending champion, the Phillies, which is another damn team too. Haha…don’t kill me if you are a Phillies fan.

So, this week, the NLCS and ALCS are both kicking off. Actually, I don’t really care about who will be the NL champion (since it won’t be my Cards). I am rooting for the Angels (first of all, they have to beat the Stripe Devil which I hate as well) and hoping they will destroy either Dodgers or Phillies in the World Series, which I believe it’s a relatively easy job for them.

Looking forward to next season, for my loved Cards, they have to re-sign Matt Holliday and try to get a contract extension for the King Albert as soon as possible. If they can accomplish both, I have a very strong faith in them that they will definitely and easily win the 11^th World Championship for the loving city of St. Louis. Other than this, I really don’t care about what other teams will do. It’s none of my business.

Oh…by the way…if the Yanks don’t want to offer Wang a good contract. Hey…Mr. Wang! Just come to St. Louis and join the outstanding pitching staff in there. Our exceptional pitching coach Dave Duncan will make you even better and give you a chance to beat the Yanks in the 2010 World Series. Also, hey…Mr. Kuo! If you are tired of the Hollywood stuff and want to go to a place who really values baseball. Come to St. Louis too! The Cards and people in St. Louis will make you feel home.

The 2010 World Champion…the St. Louis Cardinals…and the co-MVP are Chien-Ming Wang and Hong-Chi Kuo for the Cards. Haha, sounds good, right? Hopefully it is not only happening in my dream, but really taking place in the real world.

I guess everyone who knows me well may be surprised by this article title. I have been a kind of finance guy since college. I know I am good at numbers, equations, formulas, or something about money. That’s why I chose finance to study for my master’s degree and that’s why I am here as a finance PhD student.

However, lately I have been thinking about this for a while since I begin to ponder what kind of research topics or subjects I am interested either for some papers in current classes or for my future dissertation. And then, I am frozen and paralyzed and don’t know what to do next.

For last few days, after talking to some friends here, other PhD students, and one fourth-year PhD candidate in marketing, I started to have a little bit clearer view about my future research. It is to switch to the marketing program. Sounds crazy, right? For me, it is not. I think it is good for me to have a deep consideration and decision-making process in a very early stage of my PhD student life.

I still haven’t decided yet what to do next even though there are two different voices in my mind competing against each other now. I am going to talk to more people and seek more opinions and suggestions. Hopefully, I can make my mind by the end of this semester and feel determined to move on.

Now, I am praying to God for giving me the strength I need and the wisdom I don’t have to go through this tough decision-making time. I thank Him that at least I have been given courage to face this difficulty and to turn my life from inside out. Thank You, God! In addition, I also wanna thank my family and friends for supporting me without any hesitation. All of your supports are such precious gifts to me. Thank you all…

From now on, I will keep working hard to make my plan clearer and clearer. By the time I make a decision, I will let you guys know…just please wait…

I believe there will be a day that all of pain, fears, sorrow, and tears will be gone. Only Jesus and I are left. He will take me with Him to this such a perfect place without any suffering...I am alreays looking forward to that day...

Artist: Jeremy Camp

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that tries to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
That we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
We'll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel you’re walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
We'll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will
wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery
this is why this is why I sing

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
We'll see Jesus face to face
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
We'll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day, he will wipe away the tears,
He will wipe away the tears,
He will wipe away the tears,
There will be a day.

There are no perfect people and there is no perfect life. Everyone is so vulnerable compared to our perfect God. Let's bow our knees and be amazed and be changed by our perfect God...

Artist: Natalie Grant

Never let 'em see you when you're breaking
Never let 'em see you when you fall
That's how we live and that's how we try
Tell the world you've got it all together
Never let them see what's underneath
Cover it up with a crooked smile
But it only lasts for a little while

There's no such thing as perfect people
There's no such thing as a perfect life
So come as you are, broken and scarred
Lift up your heart and be amazed
And be changed by a perfect God

Suddenly it's like a weight is lifted
When you hear the words that you are loved
He knows where you are and where you've been
And you never have to go there again

There's no such thing as perfect people
There's no such thing as a perfect life
So come as you are, broken and scarred
Lift up your heart and be amazed
And be changed by a perfect God

Who lived and died to give new life
To heal our imperfections
So look up and see out let grace be enough

By a perfect God

Be changed by a perfect God

Be changed

Everytime when I encounter something I am not capable of overcoming, Jesus always comes and save me. He is a Savior. I'd need a savior. And He is my Savior...Thanks God!!!

Artist: Among The Thirsty

How many names
Can I use to explain
The love of my Jesus
The life that He gave
And so many times
Will I praise You today
I lift up my life
Cause You're always the same
And my offering
To you I bring

Your name is Jesus
Your name is Jesus
You're the wonderful, counselor, my friend
You're what I hold on to
I know that You brought me through
All the days of loss and to the cross, You knew
That I'd need a Savior

How many songs
Can I sing to proclaim
Your wondrous love
Oh and beauty so great
Oh and, What would I say
If You brought down the rain
And everyday I walked through the pain
My heart would still say…

Your name is Jesus
Your name is Jesus
You're the wonderful, counselor, my friend
You're what I hold on to
I know that You brought me through
All the days of loss and to the cross, You knew
That I'd need a Savior

......All the days of loss, and to the cross You knew,
That I'd Need a Savior Well, I'd need a Savior....woah
You're what I hold onto, I know that You brought me through
All the days of loss and to the cross You knew,
That I'd need a Savior
I'd need a Savior,
I need You Savior.

It is a beautiful day today. The sky is so clear and the temperature is just prefect. I finally got some sleep since 2:00 this morning. Even though it only lasted 4 hours or so, at least it’s a good sign to start over. I smiled when waking up this morning. With this long-waiting smile, I can say that today is taking off by a right way.

I made an egg-and-ham sandwich for my breakfast along with a glass of apple cider. The breakfast was so good that I felt fulfilled physically and spiritually again. At about 10:30 in the morning, I got a phone call from a special friend who has known me well for over 8 years. She immediately realized that I was better just from first few words I said. Yes…this is a friend I need right now to back me up and to support me to remain who I am.

I grabbed a lunch special box from Number 7 and quickly went to school for studying and preparing for this evening’s class. At Webb Center, when I was having lunch, I saw an American girl looking for table to study. I welcomed her to join my table and had some nice conversation with her. She was a nice girl to talk with. I have been feeling so depressed for several days and should have realized earlier that there are still so many pretty things and good people out there.

While doing the homework in the afternoon, one of my classmates, a Turkish girl, came to me and joined me to do our homework together. At this moment, suddenly I realized that what I might have missed during these frustrating and isolating days. The world didn’t change much and will remain mostly the same in the future. It’s up to me to find some ways to fit into it.

Happiness, frustration, excitement, depression, sadness, rejoicing, and many other emotions are all part of this world. Thank God to let me have had opportunities to experience most of them previously. I guess most of them will keep coming in the future. People will feel even happier if they have experienced sadness. People will be more excited after they encounter the frustration. People will be more thankful when they know what down sides look like.

Now…I am more thankful than any moment in my life thus far. Looking back my entire life to this point, I have been a very lucky guy and have so many friends, family members, or coworkers around me. They are all so supportive no matter how childish or selfish I have been. I thank God for these precious people. Sometimes I feel that I don’t deserve them at all. Thank you everyone! I’ll be good…no worry!

I am just about to finish the homework now. The sun is still so shiny outside. Students are either playing or chatting happily. God creates this beautiful land and those cute people for reasons. And then it’s time for me to respond Him positively and thankfully.

Back from church, it is a Sunday afternoon. After quickly changing my clothes, I pick up my laptop and school stuff and gently close the front door, then leave for the campus to study. What just happened is still stuck in my mind. I try to ignore that and drive my “little white” on the way to the school.

The wind is blowing to let the world know the sunset time is coming. My eyes are staring at the road, but have lost the focus. “You need coffee!” some voice from my mind…so I stop by the Starbucks next to the bookstore and buy a cup of triple Venti white chocolate mocha. Yes, you don’t hear this wrong. I get a triple-shot coffee…just need it to stay focused.

The parking garage is about 10 percent full. I should be happy to not spend much time to find a good spot. So, I try my best to smile…even just a small smile…takes me so much energy to do that. Maybe this is not a good time to study…..but I don’t want to be home alone at this point. I just simply need company and some noises.

Sitting in Webb Center and listening to K-Love online…Chris Tomlin’s “I Will Rise” is now being played. No matter when I hear this song, it is always so great and powerful. Suddenly, I found the huge Venti coffee cup is already emptied. Can’t believe I drink so fast…

I probably should stop here. This kind of non-sense and unorganized post may be killing someone here…sorry, folks…coz I don’t know what I am writing now…and I don’t know when my mind will be re-organized again either. Okay…I am stopping now…